Lyman Road Trips: beginning of pregnancy update!

Monday, November 10, 2014

beginning of pregnancy update!

Its been hard to motivate myself enough to get on here and write. The first 15 weeks of this pregnancy were HELL! Man I was way more sick with this one more than with Jackson. I had no energy, motivation, or desire to do anything. Which was bad because we moved into our new home during all of that.
Gary has been a SAINT with it all. He started his full time work at the Air National Guard Base and would come home to a home of disarray and no home cooked meal. He would attend to Jackson, make food, and do what he could to help with unpacking and getting things organized. Which would just make me feel horrible because I would lay there and think that if I could just mentally get there I could be much better. BUT I just couldn't.
At nights I would feel bad and cry to Gary and hate the way I was feeling and being. He would be so kind and say, "Don't worry this won't last forever." Although I know it was hard on him he was so perfect during it all. One night he told me in a very gentle way he things I have the baby blues. I said that comes AFTER you have a baby, not during. Apparently I was wrong. You can have this depression when you are pregnant. WOW. I sure had it.
After I started to feel better I still had no energy, desire or motivation to get things done which then made me even more mad because I then knew it was all mental because the sickness wasn't that bad. Gary was still patient, way more than I was with myself. FINALLY I have kicked myself out of it, I think it was Halloween weekend when I had a lot going on and a big surprise party for my parents that I was doing a lot for to help out. I think it kicked me into gear and helped me realize I like being busy, I like being productive and getting things done.
Now my house is in a bit more of an order, (I still have work!) we got a few pictures on the wall, I'm doing Christmas shopping, and even started working out again! YAY! I am feeling SO SO SO much better. The other day Gary came home to food, a clean house, and a bunch of little things that I had gotten done. He said, "I have my wife back! Oh how I've missed her." He's the cutest. And I am sure glad I am back too. That was a rough first trimester and a half!
We'll see when I can get back on here to let you know the GENDER of our baby! I find out tomorrow! So excited. Gary says to everyone its a girl (but says to me only because he really wants it to be). He has talked about it so much he kind of has gotten me thinking its a girl and even wanting a girl. I at first really wanted another boy first... I guess we will see.

These pictures have nothing to do with this post! The pics will be an update of the past little while.