3 Weeks! Slowly but surely.

3 weeks left to go! This seems so close and yet some days I just don't want to wait any longer. I realized something the other day. I was missing Gary a little- for some reason being a tad emotional. I stopped myself in trying to push all my feelings to the side by saying what I always say "its only....this much.... time left." this CAN be a good tactic but it can also be bad. This time it was bad because I just needed to feel what I was feeling. 

All too often we as people tend to try and push aside feelings of sadness, frustration, and stress because they are 'negative.' But if we just sit with the feeling and let yourself go through that emotion I feel often times we would be able to get past it instead of just ignoring it. Its a hard concept to explain but feel what you are going through... because its okay. Its okay that I was missing Gary. Its okay that I didn't even want to wait 3 more weeks. And even okay to be a little down for a time about it all. It didn't take long for me to get over as Gary called and listened to me and of course made me feel like a million bucks. 

In our relationship I am more of the 'fix the problem' and Gary is the 'just listen to me' kind. So at times when I shouldn't be fixing he fills in and helps me be okay with where I am at. 

Moving on.

Can you tell how big he is?

Jackson has been GROWING LIKE A WEED! At his 2 month appointment he was in the 91st % in weight and 94th in height! This was over 3 weeks ago! And I don't know if he is going through another growth spurt because he is feeding often again. Jackson is taller than his cousin that is 5 months old is about the same weight. 

He is starting to laugh more and smile a lot. Its getting really fun and I am excited for Gary to come be a part of it. He isn't rolling over and doesn't even seem like he is trying. He LOVES to stand on his feet though, and sitting up. He gets restless laying down all the time. He sometimes gets fussy just for some attention-its kind of cute. 

My sweet sister holding Jackson after a blow out.
She loved holding him. It was cute.

I am one LUCKY mother. He isn't one of those babies that never cries but he is so good for my needs. He has been on 9 flights! (up and downs on an airplane) because of all the layovers I had getting to San Antonio and then to Mississippi. We just took a road trip to St George and did WONDERFUL. We will be going again soon and also to Bear Lake. I love the kid so much and glad he is good for me for all that I put him through. 

Confessions of a first time mom:

Jackson sleeps on his stomach. The hospital has "back is best" everywhere so being a first time mom it was hard when he wouldn't sleep very well on his back. He sleeps a ton better on his stomach. I felt guilty like I was chancing my child's life because I didn't choose to make him sleep on his back. Don't get me wrong, probably two to four times a month I think he isn't breathing and have adrenaline shoot through my body like no other. But I have found that as a mother you have to do whatever works for you.