Thursday Countdown! 5 weeks until I see Gary and 11 until he is ALL DONE!

He's pretty good at lifting his head

YaWn

This past week has had lots of ups and downs. A good friend of mine took some pictures of Jackson for free for me. Jackson was more fussy that day than I have ever seen him. My friend Duzz says its the camera, it always happens to her. But nonetheless she got some good shots.

So adorable

The beginning of the week was a little more difficult as I feel like I have a million things that I HAVE to do. No I'm not talking about the dishes and other things everyone talks about not worrying about in this stage of having a baby they are all things I don't have a choice in getting done. I need/needed to get Jackson's birth certificate, put him in the military system, fill out everything to get him on the insurance, a few bills I have to figure out, my real estate classes have to be done by may 3rd, figure out if a breast pump is covered or not from insurance, and more.

Jacksons first bath

A little cold after his bath

ALL I have been wanting to do is cuddle with Jackson/focus on him, I started Bikram Yoga to get back in shape and hopefully look as good as I did when I was dating Gary, put together a baby announcement, spend time with family, and read about how to be a good mom.

I like the slightest smile he has

I get to talk to Gary EVERY DAY! Its the best but at the same time there is this mixed feeling as saying goodbye is always hard on me. Mostly on those postnatal hormonal days or times that something goes wrong and I just want Gary there to comfort me. I would much rather have the hard goodbyes though verses what we had in BMT.

STOP TAKING PICTURES OF ME!

Squirmy

Gary still wrote me a letter too! He knows how much I love them and so he took some time and wrote to me even though we talk so much. In it he explained all the things that was a benefit of him being gone. One of which I didn't think of but thought was insightful. He explained how its good for me (although difficult) to be getting confident as a mother on my own. I can tend to be a little too dependent on Gary since I see him so highly, and Gary is so good at being there for me. So his point was that I am stronger than I feel like I am and I will gain more confidence and strength at being a mom for the beginning part on my own. I will realize how strong I am and how capable I am to doing a good job. This has helped me A LOT! When something may be difficult I think of how Gary see's this strength in me that I can do this.
Isn't he Great? I think so.

Seriously guys I'm done!

Hungry boy

Cutest pouty face I've ever seen

May 22nd is what gets me through. I fly to see him in Mississippi and he might be able to stay WITH me on the weekend I am there! (instead of having a curfew like the rest of the nights). 5 WEEKS! 5 WEEKS! I can do 5 weeks. July 4th seems daunting but thanks to my mother I have a BOOKED flight!